Still holding on at 14dpo

I have decided I am not testing today. I know that most women know if they are preggers or not by 14dpo but I'm not sure if I would get an accurate result.
Some weird stuff has been happening, let me explain. On Monday (12dpo)& Tuesday (13dpo) I had cramping pains mostly all day, I even had this weir crampy feeling in my left leg, it was really uncomfortable. It felt like period pains, so I was suspecting that AF could be on her way. However my temps still remain high and I'm beginning to wonder if my thermometer is working - I get the same reading more or less everyday.

Yesterday I had some dark reddish and brownish discharge coming through, also when I wiped after using the loo it was pinkish the first time and more brownish subsequent times. I never usually experience spotting before my periods, I usually get full flow right away. After spending some time on google, I read that it could actually be implantation spotting from when the fertilised egg is burying into my lining. They say implantation can happen anytime between 6dpo and 12dpo, with the usual average being 9dpo. Could it be possible that I implanted really late about 12dpo and I had some implantation spotting yesterday. If this is the case, I wouldnt be worth me doing a Hpt until Saturday, which is 18 dpo. Actually FF has me down as AF starting on Saturday as I usually have long cycles with quite a long luteul phase.

If my AF comes before that, I will know that is is just spotting before AF comes, this is my first time on a clomid cycle, so this may be a side effect for me. As my temps are still up, I still have some hope that maybe I implanted late and I could still get a bfp. My breasts are still sore, but not as much as before, maybe the progesterone is slowly starting to decline.

Do any of you know of anybody who had a late implantation but still managed to get a bfp that lasted? I think I need some encouragement.

Later xx

9DPO Update

As much as I am happy to be experiencing the "2ww" it's such a difficult time, filled with noticing every single thing your body does and paying too much attention to things that could be simply a coincidence. My days and nights have been filled with google-ing all kinds of things 2ww-related. I've never experienced this before because I never know when I have ovulated to be able to calculate my 2ww. I take my hat off to the many women who go through this countdown every single month, it's truly a struggle.

The good news is that my bbt temps have consistently remained elevated (about 97.9 average). I was wondering if I should stop charting my temps as I don't want to get too caught up in the temps, it would be so difficult for me to watch my temps slowly decreasing, I think I would rather just wait for my AF to arrive or to get a BFP. I think tomorrow will be the last time I take my temp for this cycle. Actually, I would really appreciate you advice and suggestion on this ladies. Please let me know your thoughts.

So these have been my symptoms so far;

• 1dpo - normal
• 2dpo - slightly sore boobs
• 3dpo - slightly sore boobs, sticky cm
• 4dpo- sore boobs, sticky cm, slight nausea, twinges around my ovaries
• 5dpo - sore boobs, sticky cm
• 6dpo - sore boobs, slight nausea, twinges and niggles
• 7dpo - sore boobs, creamy cm
• 8dpo - sore boobs, creamy cm, twinges and niggles
• 9dpo- sore boobs, sore throat, sticky cm

I was wondering if I would have some spotting to indicate implantation, as some women notice, but I didn't see this, but fingers crossed I still implanted. I should have a good chance since I released 2 eggs, right?

Today the fertility nurse called to let me know the results of the progesterone blood test I took on 7dpo - result was 129nmol/l. This is ridiculously high, I have a large amount of progesterone in my body right now, quite considerably above the average range. Average range is 6.4-79.5nmol/L (equal to 2-25ng/mL) a week after ovulation. This sounded like great news to me but the nurse was quick to remind me that it does not mean I am pregnant and it has no relation to my chances of getting pregnant. Why couldn't she just let me have my joy for a moment?

I am due to test on Tuesday/Wednesday and I'm really hopeful and positive, I have been joking with my husband about twins over the last few days, I think he is seriously scared.

As I have spent numerous hours on google search, I was intrigued to know what happens in a woman's body between the time of fertilization and implantation. Apparently the zygote is in "free-flow" until it lands on the lining and implants, a few days later it will release the hcg hormone which can be detected by a pregnancy blood test, then a couple of days later, the hcg will be present in your urine. It's quite interesting to know all this things about a woman's body and makes me appreciate the miracle of human life, truly a testament to the awesomeness of God. This whole ttc experience has taught me so many things about my body.

If you would like to read a more detailed  account of implantation, I found the link below quite helpful.

http://www.early-pregnancy-tests.com/lutealphase.html

So I have 5 more days to test, I never want to be in this 2ww again. I don't even want to try to get pregnant. Anyway, I cant really complain, this clomid therapy has worked well for me so for, so fingers crossed for the ultimate finish hey!

That's it for now, God Bless xxx

1DPO update

Right, so I should have posted some of my updates before today but I have come down with a cold and been trying to conserve my energy. 

The last time I posted (cd16), I had one follicle sized 16mm and another 17-18mm and I was asked to come back on cd19(today) to check the size and get my trigger shot (Ovitrelle).

Well, on cd17 I did my clearblue OPK test in the morning and I got a lovely smiley face - a positive, which I was quite surprised about because the DR said I needed a day or 2 more to let my follicles grow. Anyway, hubby and I did our part. I wanted to be doubly sure so I tested again late afternoon and it was still positive. I called the hospital to let them know and the fertility nurse said she was also a bit surprised but that she thought it was good and that I had a great lining. She said I no longer needed to come in on cd19 for my trigger shot, but I told her that I had had false positives in previous cycles and I wanted to be sure if I really ovulate without the trigger. So I kept my appointment hoping that the scan would conform that indeed I have ovulated and if not, I could just get my trigger shot.

I did another OPK test yesterday (cd18) morning and I got another positive, which is quite weird, anyway, hubby and I both did what we needed to do. 

This morning I did another one (only GOD knows why) and I got another positive - this is super weird, but I had a feeling that I had ovulated anyway because my bbt temp was 97.86, which was quite a dramatic rise.

So the DR scanned me as per usual, and she said that I had already ovulated from BOTH  of my ovaries - yes 2 eggs!!!!!!!!!!!! She claimed that she saw a collapsed follicle on both sides, she showed me one which I could clearly see but on the other side it was not so clear. Anyway, I trust her judgement.

So as it stands I am 1dpo and hubby and I have covered our bases with the bd'ing, and I have released 2 eggs, even if I don't get a BFN this cycle, I will still count this cycle as a success. It's the first time I have ever pinpointed my ovulation, this alone has increased my chances of pregnancy. Also, this will be a normal length cycle.

I have to go back to the hospital next Tuesday (cd24) for a progesterone blood test and then test the following Tuesday (cd31) which is 13dpo.

I hope I can stay calm and collected until then.

I will keep you posted once I get my blood test results and also on my temps, although I'm thinking I will only keep temping until the day of my blood test. I don't wan't to to get too hung over my temps and stress over whether I'm pregnant or not. I see that happening to a lot of women, if I don't know, I wont stress and I can look forward to my taking a pregnancy test.

That's it folks.

Warm wishes to you all xxx

Back to OPK's

So I'm back to doing OPK's as I did not ovulate, I'm cd 29 today my test was quite dark but I don't think it was quite a positive.

My CM was gummy, I don't know if you really understand what that means, I don't really know how to describe it. I won't take a pic bcos that would just disgust you guys. It's not like a cream or lotion, it's slightly sticky and stretchy. I really have problems with this, I wish I could have a personal CM analyser.

Oh yeh, my bbt is actually working, my temps have gone back to their normal range.

So that's a quick update, I'm looking forward to what the nurse is going to give me next week.

Cycle day 25 update.......and confusion

This week has been a long week, mentally draining infact. In my last post I was excited to get 2positive OPK's, excited is an understatement to be honest. I promised to remain positive, which I did and I am - I think. DH and I BD'd around the days of the positive test to cover all bases, I think we did pretty well, apart from the day before my positive OPK which we did not BD on.
Since then I have been closely watching my temps, looking for a shift, but unfortunately I did not get any. My temps were a bit erratic for a few days and then they went real low, for the past 3 days my temp has been 96.76, usually my average temp is around 97.2 or something. At one point I was thinking my bbt had broken because i had the same temp for 3 days and they have been unusually low. Does the bbt not work in extremely cold weather or something - it's been absolutely freezing here for the past few days, unbearably cold in fact. How do people that live in Russia cope? It's like -20 over there.

Anyway, it seems as if i did not ovulate, it was just my shitty pcos body playing ovulation tricks on me again - totally not fair.

Also, for the past 2 days I have had a real creamy textured CM and I have noticed over the past 10 days or so that I tend to generally alternate between sticky and lotion type CM. Sometimes it has a tiny bit of stretch, but not clearly EWCM.

If anyone is reading this, do you think I should continue with the OPK's again? I might get a few positives before I eventually ovulate, I hate getting my hopes up only to find out I did not actually ovulate.

Please advise me, im a bit confused here and I'm at the point where I usually give upon my cycle and stop charting, but I promised I would see this cycle through even if it turns out to be 80 days long. I better stock up on more OPK's then.......ooops, where did the positivity go?


How are you ladies getting on?


Baby Dust to you all