Still holding on at 14dpo

I have decided I am not testing today. I know that most women know if they are preggers or not by 14dpo but I'm not sure if I would get an accurate result.
Some weird stuff has been happening, let me explain. On Monday (12dpo)& Tuesday (13dpo) I had cramping pains mostly all day, I even had this weir crampy feeling in my left leg, it was really uncomfortable. It felt like period pains, so I was suspecting that AF could be on her way. However my temps still remain high and I'm beginning to wonder if my thermometer is working - I get the same reading more or less everyday.

Yesterday I had some dark reddish and brownish discharge coming through, also when I wiped after using the loo it was pinkish the first time and more brownish subsequent times. I never usually experience spotting before my periods, I usually get full flow right away. After spending some time on google, I read that it could actually be implantation spotting from when the fertilised egg is burying into my lining. They say implantation can happen anytime between 6dpo and 12dpo, with the usual average being 9dpo. Could it be possible that I implanted really late about 12dpo and I had some implantation spotting yesterday. If this is the case, I wouldnt be worth me doing a Hpt until Saturday, which is 18 dpo. Actually FF has me down as AF starting on Saturday as I usually have long cycles with quite a long luteul phase.

If my AF comes before that, I will know that is is just spotting before AF comes, this is my first time on a clomid cycle, so this may be a side effect for me. As my temps are still up, I still have some hope that maybe I implanted late and I could still get a bfp. My breasts are still sore, but not as much as before, maybe the progesterone is slowly starting to decline.

Do any of you know of anybody who had a late implantation but still managed to get a bfp that lasted? I think I need some encouragement.

Later xx

9DPO Update

As much as I am happy to be experiencing the "2ww" it's such a difficult time, filled with noticing every single thing your body does and paying too much attention to things that could be simply a coincidence. My days and nights have been filled with google-ing all kinds of things 2ww-related. I've never experienced this before because I never know when I have ovulated to be able to calculate my 2ww. I take my hat off to the many women who go through this countdown every single month, it's truly a struggle.

The good news is that my bbt temps have consistently remained elevated (about 97.9 average). I was wondering if I should stop charting my temps as I don't want to get too caught up in the temps, it would be so difficult for me to watch my temps slowly decreasing, I think I would rather just wait for my AF to arrive or to get a BFP. I think tomorrow will be the last time I take my temp for this cycle. Actually, I would really appreciate you advice and suggestion on this ladies. Please let me know your thoughts.

So these have been my symptoms so far;

• 1dpo - normal
• 2dpo - slightly sore boobs
• 3dpo - slightly sore boobs, sticky cm
• 4dpo- sore boobs, sticky cm, slight nausea, twinges around my ovaries
• 5dpo - sore boobs, sticky cm
• 6dpo - sore boobs, slight nausea, twinges and niggles
• 7dpo - sore boobs, creamy cm
• 8dpo - sore boobs, creamy cm, twinges and niggles
• 9dpo- sore boobs, sore throat, sticky cm

I was wondering if I would have some spotting to indicate implantation, as some women notice, but I didn't see this, but fingers crossed I still implanted. I should have a good chance since I released 2 eggs, right?

Today the fertility nurse called to let me know the results of the progesterone blood test I took on 7dpo - result was 129nmol/l. This is ridiculously high, I have a large amount of progesterone in my body right now, quite considerably above the average range. Average range is 6.4-79.5nmol/L (equal to 2-25ng/mL) a week after ovulation. This sounded like great news to me but the nurse was quick to remind me that it does not mean I am pregnant and it has no relation to my chances of getting pregnant. Why couldn't she just let me have my joy for a moment?

I am due to test on Tuesday/Wednesday and I'm really hopeful and positive, I have been joking with my husband about twins over the last few days, I think he is seriously scared.

As I have spent numerous hours on google search, I was intrigued to know what happens in a woman's body between the time of fertilization and implantation. Apparently the zygote is in "free-flow" until it lands on the lining and implants, a few days later it will release the hcg hormone which can be detected by a pregnancy blood test, then a couple of days later, the hcg will be present in your urine. It's quite interesting to know all this things about a woman's body and makes me appreciate the miracle of human life, truly a testament to the awesomeness of God. This whole ttc experience has taught me so many things about my body.

If you would like to read a more detailed  account of implantation, I found the link below quite helpful.

http://www.early-pregnancy-tests.com/lutealphase.html

So I have 5 more days to test, I never want to be in this 2ww again. I don't even want to try to get pregnant. Anyway, I cant really complain, this clomid therapy has worked well for me so for, so fingers crossed for the ultimate finish hey!

That's it for now, God Bless xxx