Cd14 quick update

Seems like I have been away from here for a while, but it's been totally deliberate. I've decided not to invest too much emotion into this cycle, I just don't want to get too hurt if it does not result in pregnancy.

To be honest I did not even know what cycle day I was on until I decided to write this post. I have been temping on and off, but nothing consistent.

On cd11 I went for my follicular scan, it was not so great. I had one follicle on the right side that was 7mm, and that was it, all the rest were not worth checking the size.

I was a bit sad, but I can't really be bothered to worry about it. I'm going back on Wednesday cd20 to check for growth and possible ovulation, if my follicle is mature but I have not ovulated, they will trigger me. I will start taking temping seriously from today and start the OPK's on Saturday.

In the meantime, hubby and I have decided to take a spontaneous short break over the diamond jubilee weekend to Dubai, I'm actually typing this post from the boarding lounge, will be back on Tuesday. We just thought we needed a short break to festered and not get too caught up in this whole ttc thing. This period in my life is the last time I will have the opportunity for such spontaneity and carefreeness(I know that's not a real word), so we may as enjoy it while we can. Once a baby comes along, everything takes forward planning.

I am going to enjoy the hell of this Dubai trip, scorching heat and all.

I will post some pics when I get back.

I've also been thinking about what interesting things one can do during the 2ww to keep your mind off of things, maybe blogging about different things, not necessarily about the awful wait. Please send across your ideas ladies, we can all do it together.

Anyway that's it folks, I have not even looked at this blog for a while, so I need to catch up with what is going on with you guys.I hope you are all well and good


Hugs, kisses and baby dust to all xxx

Moving on to Clomid Cycle 2

Hi all, I have recorded an update video, it was filmed yesterday - today I am actually cd5 but it's all in the video anyway.
I just want to say hello to a couple of new subscribers I have noticed and also say a massive thanks to all the ladies who left comments on my blog, they were so amazing.

Baby dust to all xx

Clomid Cycle 1...............BFN

As the title suggests, today I got a bfn after testing.
I had a temp dip too down to 97.33 which is in the normal range of my pre-ovulation temps. TBH I don't really want to to go into detail about it yet, I'm so disappointed as I was so hopeful about this cycle.

I tested with a FRER and only had 1 pink line.

I just want to quickly thank all the ladies that left wonderful comments on my blog, those comments really helped to keep me hoping throughout this cycle, it was amazing.

I will probably go into more details in my next post, just not in the mood right now, but I thought I should let you all know seeing as you have been right there with me on this cycle.

Take care ladies xxx

Lara

Still holding on at 14dpo

I have decided I am not testing today. I know that most women know if they are preggers or not by 14dpo but I'm not sure if I would get an accurate result.
Some weird stuff has been happening, let me explain. On Monday (12dpo)& Tuesday (13dpo) I had cramping pains mostly all day, I even had this weir crampy feeling in my left leg, it was really uncomfortable. It felt like period pains, so I was suspecting that AF could be on her way. However my temps still remain high and I'm beginning to wonder if my thermometer is working - I get the same reading more or less everyday.

Yesterday I had some dark reddish and brownish discharge coming through, also when I wiped after using the loo it was pinkish the first time and more brownish subsequent times. I never usually experience spotting before my periods, I usually get full flow right away. After spending some time on google, I read that it could actually be implantation spotting from when the fertilised egg is burying into my lining. They say implantation can happen anytime between 6dpo and 12dpo, with the usual average being 9dpo. Could it be possible that I implanted really late about 12dpo and I had some implantation spotting yesterday. If this is the case, I wouldnt be worth me doing a Hpt until Saturday, which is 18 dpo. Actually FF has me down as AF starting on Saturday as I usually have long cycles with quite a long luteul phase.

If my AF comes before that, I will know that is is just spotting before AF comes, this is my first time on a clomid cycle, so this may be a side effect for me. As my temps are still up, I still have some hope that maybe I implanted late and I could still get a bfp. My breasts are still sore, but not as much as before, maybe the progesterone is slowly starting to decline.

Do any of you know of anybody who had a late implantation but still managed to get a bfp that lasted? I think I need some encouragement.

Later xx

9DPO Update

As much as I am happy to be experiencing the "2ww" it's such a difficult time, filled with noticing every single thing your body does and paying too much attention to things that could be simply a coincidence. My days and nights have been filled with google-ing all kinds of things 2ww-related. I've never experienced this before because I never know when I have ovulated to be able to calculate my 2ww. I take my hat off to the many women who go through this countdown every single month, it's truly a struggle.

The good news is that my bbt temps have consistently remained elevated (about 97.9 average). I was wondering if I should stop charting my temps as I don't want to get too caught up in the temps, it would be so difficult for me to watch my temps slowly decreasing, I think I would rather just wait for my AF to arrive or to get a BFP. I think tomorrow will be the last time I take my temp for this cycle. Actually, I would really appreciate you advice and suggestion on this ladies. Please let me know your thoughts.

So these have been my symptoms so far;

• 1dpo - normal
• 2dpo - slightly sore boobs
• 3dpo - slightly sore boobs, sticky cm
• 4dpo- sore boobs, sticky cm, slight nausea, twinges around my ovaries
• 5dpo - sore boobs, sticky cm
• 6dpo - sore boobs, slight nausea, twinges and niggles
• 7dpo - sore boobs, creamy cm
• 8dpo - sore boobs, creamy cm, twinges and niggles
• 9dpo- sore boobs, sore throat, sticky cm

I was wondering if I would have some spotting to indicate implantation, as some women notice, but I didn't see this, but fingers crossed I still implanted. I should have a good chance since I released 2 eggs, right?

Today the fertility nurse called to let me know the results of the progesterone blood test I took on 7dpo - result was 129nmol/l. This is ridiculously high, I have a large amount of progesterone in my body right now, quite considerably above the average range. Average range is 6.4-79.5nmol/L (equal to 2-25ng/mL) a week after ovulation. This sounded like great news to me but the nurse was quick to remind me that it does not mean I am pregnant and it has no relation to my chances of getting pregnant. Why couldn't she just let me have my joy for a moment?

I am due to test on Tuesday/Wednesday and I'm really hopeful and positive, I have been joking with my husband about twins over the last few days, I think he is seriously scared.

As I have spent numerous hours on google search, I was intrigued to know what happens in a woman's body between the time of fertilization and implantation. Apparently the zygote is in "free-flow" until it lands on the lining and implants, a few days later it will release the hcg hormone which can be detected by a pregnancy blood test, then a couple of days later, the hcg will be present in your urine. It's quite interesting to know all this things about a woman's body and makes me appreciate the miracle of human life, truly a testament to the awesomeness of God. This whole ttc experience has taught me so many things about my body.

If you would like to read a more detailed  account of implantation, I found the link below quite helpful.

http://www.early-pregnancy-tests.com/lutealphase.html

So I have 5 more days to test, I never want to be in this 2ww again. I don't even want to try to get pregnant. Anyway, I cant really complain, this clomid therapy has worked well for me so for, so fingers crossed for the ultimate finish hey!

That's it for now, God Bless xxx

1DPO update

Right, so I should have posted some of my updates before today but I have come down with a cold and been trying to conserve my energy. 

The last time I posted (cd16), I had one follicle sized 16mm and another 17-18mm and I was asked to come back on cd19(today) to check the size and get my trigger shot (Ovitrelle).

Well, on cd17 I did my clearblue OPK test in the morning and I got a lovely smiley face - a positive, which I was quite surprised about because the DR said I needed a day or 2 more to let my follicles grow. Anyway, hubby and I did our part. I wanted to be doubly sure so I tested again late afternoon and it was still positive. I called the hospital to let them know and the fertility nurse said she was also a bit surprised but that she thought it was good and that I had a great lining. She said I no longer needed to come in on cd19 for my trigger shot, but I told her that I had had false positives in previous cycles and I wanted to be sure if I really ovulate without the trigger. So I kept my appointment hoping that the scan would conform that indeed I have ovulated and if not, I could just get my trigger shot.

I did another OPK test yesterday (cd18) morning and I got another positive, which is quite weird, anyway, hubby and I both did what we needed to do. 

This morning I did another one (only GOD knows why) and I got another positive - this is super weird, but I had a feeling that I had ovulated anyway because my bbt temp was 97.86, which was quite a dramatic rise.

So the DR scanned me as per usual, and she said that I had already ovulated from BOTH  of my ovaries - yes 2 eggs!!!!!!!!!!!! She claimed that she saw a collapsed follicle on both sides, she showed me one which I could clearly see but on the other side it was not so clear. Anyway, I trust her judgement.

So as it stands I am 1dpo and hubby and I have covered our bases with the bd'ing, and I have released 2 eggs, even if I don't get a BFN this cycle, I will still count this cycle as a success. It's the first time I have ever pinpointed my ovulation, this alone has increased my chances of pregnancy. Also, this will be a normal length cycle.

I have to go back to the hospital next Tuesday (cd24) for a progesterone blood test and then test the following Tuesday (cd31) which is 13dpo.

I hope I can stay calm and collected until then.

I will keep you posted once I get my blood test results and also on my temps, although I'm thinking I will only keep temping until the day of my blood test. I don't wan't to to get too hung over my temps and stress over whether I'm pregnant or not. I see that happening to a lot of women, if I don't know, I wont stress and I can look forward to my taking a pregnancy test.

That's it folks.

Warm wishes to you all xxx