Provera x3

I'm really frustrated right now, I hate to start of writing this way but it just seems like every time I think I'm a little closer, I get moved steps back.

I called the nurses on Tuesday to let them know I was back from my trip and that I needed a scan to possibly get something to induce a period. The last time I was there, the nurse said I should call them if I don't get a period by the 27th of this month. I knew that would never happen so I just called them as soon as I got back.

So when the nurse called me back on Tuesday, she told me to come in for a scan today, and I was so happy that it was quick.

I have just left the hospital now, they scanned my uterus lining and measured the size of the eggs in my ovaries. After the scan was complete, the doctor told me that she would prescribe provera to take for 3 WEEKS, yes 3WEEKS. She went on to explain that due to the Easter break (when they would be closed) if I had a bleed they would not be able to do anything about it, so it would be better to take it for 3 weeks. This means by the times I have completed the 3 weeks and waited for the bleed to start, I'm looking at about 4 weeks minimum before I can start clomid. This sucks.

I asked her that would it have not made more sense to just have asked me to come in for the scan a few dys before they close and then only take provera for 1 week, she agreed but said that taking provera for 3 weeks is fine. Yes I agree, it's fine, but unnecessary.

So now I need to wait again, the waiting never ends.

I will take the first provera pill tonight and keep you updated of the side effects along the course.

If any of you have taken provera for this long, or know of anyone who has, I would really like to know how long it took for the withdrawal bleed to start.

Bests

Back to life, back to reality (cd22)

I always sing this song on the plane when I'm coming back from a holiday or trip, for some reason it just always comes to mind.


I'm back from my trip and the first thing on my mind is starting the clomid and my cycles. It's so funngy that while I was away I was not thinking about clomid or ttc or anything like that, I was just having fun with my family and friends. Spending time with my two cute nieces made me think that I would really like to have a girl first, it's amazing to see the personalities so evident at a young age, they amaze me. DH and I bought them a Nintendo Wii so we spent many evenings playing family games, and can't wait to experience the same with my own kiddies.

I think I would like to have 4 in total but we will see about that after having one FIRST. LOL!!!!!

So now that I'm back I'm going to call the fertility nurses and see if it is necessary for me to wait until cd29 before getting provera, as I know I would never have a period by then. Maybe I could just get a scan this week and then start the provera.

I'm happy to be back and back to focusing on getting pregnant but the break from temping, reading ttc blogs, and thinking about the whole ttc thing was great and I really need to enjoy my life and make the best of the time i have while I am not pregnant. Once I get pregnant I can never get this time of my life back again, as being a mother is a whole new life to adjust to. I need to enjoy the now, and not let ttc consume me, it will happen.


Oh, I'm loving this positive feeling I have right now,I'm feeling positive for all you guys out there too, let's stay positive together.

Hubby and I have opened a savings account dedicated to saving for the baby, we save anyway, but this will be baby specific. Do you guys save for a baby?

Take care guys

CD7 update & nurse appointment

Hey all, I'm on cd7 now and I have had a regular period so far. I saw the nurse on Wednesday (cd3) and had a transvaginal done. I also had some fertility hormone bloddtests as well as HIV,hep b, etc.
The transvaginal took about 20seconds and then she just told me start taking clomid that evening for 5 days and to come back for another scan on cd11. I was sooo happy and immediately started thinking about the possibility of it working on the first go and me being pregnant by the end of the month. That would be amazing.

I then asked her when my next appointment would be after the cd11 one, and she said it depended on how my body reacted but I would need to come for monitoring quite often as I have not taken it before. I then reminded her that I was travelling for 10 days and if I that would affect anything. She then told me that I could not start unill I begin my next period then, I told her that it could take up to 3 months to come again. So she said I should wait for 4 weeks and if period has not started then they would give me pills to bleed and then subsequently start the clomid.

I was so pissed you couldn't imagine, I was just so excited to start and then she killed my
excitement. I was thinking that they could scan me the day before I leave then I could start clomid while I'm away and then come back when my scan is due, but she wasn't happy with that. I guess I can't blame her for doing her job, she said it's only a month but that feels like year to me.

So I just have to be patient. I am not going to temp anymore as it just makes me too involved and I start worrying over every little thing. Just going to wait out the 4 weeks and prepare my body to eventually start clomid.


That's it for now, hope you guys are all ok.

Let me know what's going on with you.

God Bless

Back at One

Hey, as I was about to start writing I thought of the Brian McKnight song "Back at One" and it relates to my post because AF is here, yep that's right, CD1. But that song is such a great song, I used to have this song on repeat constantly. If you have not yard it before, go listen to it on YouTube.

So back to business, before I went to bed last night I went to the loo, and when I wiped I saw some pink - I immediately knew what was coming, so I put a sanitary towel on before I went to bed. I woke with full flow and lots of cramps.

When I saw the nurse she said I need to call on cd1, so I called today and left a message with their department. The nurse called me back later in the morning and booked me in for a transvaginal scan this Wednesday. She also told me not to take any clomid until they instruct me to. I will also need to take some blood tests for HIV,hep b,etc. I've had these tests already but they said I need to do them again because it was over a year ago and it's compulsory to have these tests done before having any fertility treatment.

So I'm wondering what will happen now, will I start now or have to wait till I get back fom my trip,at least I don't have to wait too long until Wednesday.

I'm slightly uncomfortable about having a transvaginal on cd3, my flow can be still slightly heavy at that time.

As I'm going to start clomid this cycle, I am going to make sure I'm taking my folic acid religiously, as well as vitamin b complex and evening primrose oil. I need to stock up on clearblue OPK's and I started temping again for this cycle.
Does anyone know if it's ok to take agnus castus along with clomid?, it helps with hormonal balance. Please let me know if you have insight.

God Bless

CD 48 update ( and fertility nurse appointment )

As the title suggests, I'm on cd48- another long ass cycle, but I have not been obsessing over this cycle, I have just let it run it's course without stressing about it too much. At the beginning of my cycle I was quite focused on making sure I complete a full cycle of temping and monitoring my CM. I also started using OPK's around cd15. You will be disappointed to know that amidst all the positive encouragement from you ladies,I still managed to stop temping and stop doing the OPK's. I know, I gave up and I shouldn't have. I'm just one of these people who easily get de- motivated when I don't see results soon enough. Actually I think it's more the fact that I'm not disciplined enough - or so my husband tells me. The last temp I charted was on cd30 and the last opk I did was on cd34, then I just threw in the towel as I knew it was going to be another drawn out cycle.

Anyway, I did start noticing my cm get a little stretchier and more eggwhite around cd34 and this continued for a few days, so I was thinking that maybe I'm ovulating. To be honest I should have really made sure I was temping and doing OPK's to confirm this but I was too lazy. It's also really hard to do OPK's when you get home late from work, there is no way i could do it at work either.

Unfortunately, we did not BD at all around the time that my cm appeared to be fertile, and this was due to me feeling unwell, drained, tired and hubby and I were not on the best terms anyway. By this time I was just looking forward to my appointment with the fertility nurse that had been set up at my last FS appointment back in January.

So I went to the hospital to see the nurse last week Thursday 16th feb, which was cd39 for me and to be honest i was excited to hear what she would say, hoping and praying she would just give me clomid and glad that I would jot have to undergo any invasive scans or anything.

By the time my appointment came along, in my heart of hearts I knew that I probably ovulated in the past few days and that we had missed our opportunity for this cycle, I had a very very slight tender feeling in my breasts which I only normally get when my AF is getting ready to show up.

So the nurse basically told me that my HSG report was normal and the next step was for me to go on 50mg of clomid for 3 months. She was very positive about it and said that she felt this would work for me, if not we could increase the dose. I was really happy as you can imagine.
She gave me the prescription then and there for 3months worth of clomid and also the trigger shot.

She said I could start immediately and I did not have to wait for my period but first they would need to do a scant check my uterus lining was thin, apparently you can only start when the lining is thin, if the lining is thick they can give you provera to make it shed and then you can begin. So she asked me to come in the following morning to get the scan done to check my lining. In my head I was thinking that my lining probably would be slightly thick as ovulation had happened and my period would probably come in about 2 weeks so it might make sense to wait for it. Anyway I did not say anything as there was a small chance that I could be wrong. The nurse said that once I start taking it I would need to come back a few days after my last dose to check if any eggs were maturing and to possibly get a trigger shot to make me ovulate. If there were no mature eggs I would need to come back a few days later to do another scan to check. She said I would also need to use the clearblue smiley face OPK's around that time and once get a positive to BD that morning, night and following morning. She said it must be the smiley face ones. In my mind I w thinking how I would manage to get all this time off work to come for scans without anybody knowing the Eason why.

Then suddenly I remembered that me and hubby are travelling for 10 days on the 9th march, how would we make all the appointments, so I told her and she advised that we should start the clomid when we get back. I will have to go in for a scan to check my lining and then start according to the result of the scan. I know that my period is going to come before then as my boobs are so sore and have doubled in size - hubby loves it!!!! I was right, I did ovulate when I say my CM get stretchier.

So the plan now is to call the nurse on CD1(which should be very soon) and here what she suggests, she did say that i might be able to start it while I'm away and then I could have a scan done to check for mature eggs as soon as I get back from our trip. So as it stands I don't really know when we are going to start the clomid, we will just have to play it day by day.

I must say that I feel quite positive about the clomid, even though she did say that it may take a while to have an effect, due to pcos. I have been reading loads of success stories online and they are really uplifting. Here's the link if you want to read a few.

http://www.mumsnet.com/Talk/pregnancy/199983-clomid-success-stories-please/AllOnOnePage

Phewww, this is a long post, I'm really sorry I should have been updating more regularly. If any of you have any clomid stories, good or bad, please share them. I would love to hear them.

Everyday I keep looking at my clomid wondering when I am going to start, but it should be quite soon.
I hope I have not missed out anything important.

Take care ladies xx

Baby dust to all

AWOL.......

Ok, so I admit I have been a bit absent lately. But I have a good excuse, I promise.
I have been so busy at work, as I just got promoted, yaaaaaay. I have so much responsibility now that I am getting home so late at night feeling shattered. Also the last 2 weekends have been absolutely packed.

I have quite a lot to update, but I'm at work right now, so will have to wait till I get home. I'm wondering whether I should post a video or a regular post....maybe you guys can let me know what you prefer.

I just thought I would post this just to let you know I have not completely abandoned my blog, some ladies on BnB have also started blogs recently, so I have a lot of catch up reading to do also. I'm also going to catch up on reading all your blogs too. So look out for my next post tonight.

God Bless

Back to OPK's

So I'm back to doing OPK's as I did not ovulate, I'm cd 29 today my test was quite dark but I don't think it was quite a positive.

My CM was gummy, I don't know if you really understand what that means, I don't really know how to describe it. I won't take a pic bcos that would just disgust you guys. It's not like a cream or lotion, it's slightly sticky and stretchy. I really have problems with this, I wish I could have a personal CM analyser.

Oh yeh, my bbt is actually working, my temps have gone back to their normal range.

So that's a quick update, I'm looking forward to what the nurse is going to give me next week.