9 week update

I have been a bit quiet on here lately, mainly because I am really struggling with my new found symtoms - aren't they just awful? I already feel like maybe just one child will be enough for me, even though I have wanted 4 for forever.

I've recorded a couple of videos about what's bveen happening over the past few weeks, couldn't fit it into one so had to do 2, that will teach me to update more often. Check out my picture of my little bambino - super cute!

 

 

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Just for your information, the app I mentioned is called Sprout, and I really like it. If anyone requires more info on the books I bought, just message me and I will tell you more, dont really want to bore anyone if they are not interested.



Thank you to everyone who has been thinking and asking of me, hopefully I will be able to keep to my plan of updating every week. Please encourage me.

I really feel like this pregnancy is going really slow, I can twait to be in my 2nd trimester and hopefully rid of these horrible symptoms. I dont want to complain too much because I wanted to be pregnant and I'd rather have these syptoms than still be trying to get pregnant each month.


So lets see what happens at my next appointments.

Take care guys xx

4wks 4days.........................

So I'm officially 4wks & 4days into my pregnancy, still very early indeed. This is consistent with what I thought based on my ovulation date which I believe was probably August 1st. This puts my EDD at 26th April 2013 (2 days after our 3rd wedding anniversary).

I had to wait for over an hour at the EPU(early pregnancy unit) to get my scan done and I was getting more and more nervous and I could just feel butterflies in my stomach worrying about what could go wrong.

As I was getting scanned in a different clinic, I had a new doctor that I was not used to so I was a bit apprehensive going into the consultation room. The doctor asked a few questions about my medical history  and about my cycles. Since my last period started on June 23rd, she said I would be about 8wks pregnant, but I told her that was impossible as I have a very good idea of my ovulation date.

While she was performing the transvaginal scan I was able to see the screen and quickly noticed the gestational sac was in my uterus -pheww!! I was not too worried about an ectopic pregnancy, but it was still a relief. The doctor was also able to see the yolk sac which was good, there was no heartbeat as yet as she said it would be too early. She said that what she saw was consistent with a 4-5wk pregnancy. She also checked both my ovaries and confirmed that I ovulated from my life ovary which was enlarged and contained a corpus luteum. Finally, she recommended I go back in 3 weeks time for a scan which should reveal a heartbeat - I hope the time passes quickly, because it's all I think about.

They gave me this report to keep, which is basically a summary of the scan.

My next steps are

• to research and buy a few pregnancy books
• buy a bathroom scale to weigh myself
• book an appointment with my GP
• start eating a more healthy diet and drink more water

Hopefully, these will occupy me until my next scan in 3 weeks - if anyone has any books to recommend, that would be a great start.

As I said in my previous post, I am not really having any symptoms, I guess that's because I am still really early.

Thanks to everyone who congratulated me and sent lovely wishes, I really appreciate it. 

That's it for now, God Bless xx

And the story goes.............(part 2)

And the story goes.........

OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Time for a little break - CD6

So I'm taking a short break from the Clomid because I have to go away for a wedding, which will be during my fertile period, also, I'm going alone so I won't have the opportunity to babydance with hubby.

Here is an update video of how clomid round 2 ended.

Hope you're all well and good ladies, its been a while since I posted, it just doesn't come naturally to me when I get bad news. Sorry!

On Monday evening my SIL called to let us know she is now 10wks preggers with her second, of-course I am so happy for them, I know that the timing is right for them and that it's what they wanted. So now I have 2 SIL's that are pregnant and I'm still struggling to get a BFP. I am not feeling sorry for myself or anything, but I just wish it could be my turn too.

Anyway, thats it xxxx

Progesterone results & CD29 Update

Results are in........87.3nmol/l so a definate ovulation and pretty high for a single follicle ovulation.

I'm happy about this because I was beginning to doubt my ovulation, my boobs are only just beginning to feel sore, this is so bizarre for me. My temps are still high, so that's good too.

Ive not invested much emotion into this cycle, I'm hopeful but whatever happens I'm fine.

Not much more to say here, keepin it short and sweet.

CD24 & 4DPO Update????

Right now I'm so confused with my body, have I ovulated or not? FF is saying that I'm 4dpo which is great, but I am slightly suspicious. Let's go back a bit. I went in for a follicular scan on Wednesday just gone(cd20) and I had one dominant follicle on my right side that had grown to 20mm, so a real good size. The scan before showed a 7mm follicle on cd11. I took my trigger shot with me just in case I had a good size egg that had ovulated yet.

While I was in Dubai I took OPK tests everyday hoping it would be positive, but nope, just kept getting negatives. So I was hoping that when I went in on Wednesday I would have a good size egg and they would trigger me there and then, but no, my body threw me a curve ball. On Wednesday morning before going in to the hospital, I got a positive OPK, so the nurse decided I did not need to get triggered since my follicle was 20mm. She told me that ovulation was happening, so there was no need to.

The next morning I got quite a high temp and also another positive OPK, followed by another hight temp the next day, so FF put my ovulation day on Wednesday, but I actually think I would have ovulated on Thursday (cd21).

I need to go back this coming Wednesday for a progesterone test to see if I did ovulate, but here is where I'm a bit confused. Usually within 2 days of ovulating, I get very sore and tender breasts as a result of the progesterone in my system. So far, my boobs still feel normal, which isnt normal. FF says I'm 4dpo, but I think I'm 3dpo. My temps have stayed high, but no breast tenderness, Im worried that maybe I dont have a enough progesterone this cycle, or maybe I didnt even ovulate. Not really sure whats going on, I guess I will have a clearer picture when I get the progesterone reults.

Generally, im not too stressed this 2ww, im not really thinking about, it's just somewhere in the back of my mind, not always on my mind like last cycle.

So thats it.

I will upload some pics of my Dubai trip for you guys to see, I really had a great time, and did not realise how much I needed a break until I actually had a break. I definately recommend it.

Cd14 quick update

Seems like I have been away from here for a while, but it's been totally deliberate. I've decided not to invest too much emotion into this cycle, I just don't want to get too hurt if it does not result in pregnancy.

To be honest I did not even know what cycle day I was on until I decided to write this post. I have been temping on and off, but nothing consistent.

On cd11 I went for my follicular scan, it was not so great. I had one follicle on the right side that was 7mm, and that was it, all the rest were not worth checking the size.

I was a bit sad, but I can't really be bothered to worry about it. I'm going back on Wednesday cd20 to check for growth and possible ovulation, if my follicle is mature but I have not ovulated, they will trigger me. I will start taking temping seriously from today and start the OPK's on Saturday.

In the meantime, hubby and I have decided to take a spontaneous short break over the diamond jubilee weekend to Dubai, I'm actually typing this post from the boarding lounge, will be back on Tuesday. We just thought we needed a short break to festered and not get too caught up in this whole ttc thing. This period in my life is the last time I will have the opportunity for such spontaneity and carefreeness(I know that's not a real word), so we may as enjoy it while we can. Once a baby comes along, everything takes forward planning.

I am going to enjoy the hell of this Dubai trip, scorching heat and all.

I will post some pics when I get back.

I've also been thinking about what interesting things one can do during the 2ww to keep your mind off of things, maybe blogging about different things, not necessarily about the awful wait. Please send across your ideas ladies, we can all do it together.

Anyway that's it folks, I have not even looked at this blog for a while, so I need to catch up with what is going on with you guys.I hope you are all well and good


Hugs, kisses and baby dust to all xxx

Moving on to Clomid Cycle 2

Hi all, I have recorded an update video, it was filmed yesterday - today I am actually cd5 but it's all in the video anyway.
I just want to say hello to a couple of new subscribers I have noticed and also say a massive thanks to all the ladies who left comments on my blog, they were so amazing.

Baby dust to all xx

Clomid Cycle 1...............BFN

As the title suggests, today I got a bfn after testing.
I had a temp dip too down to 97.33 which is in the normal range of my pre-ovulation temps. TBH I don't really want to to go into detail about it yet, I'm so disappointed as I was so hopeful about this cycle.

I tested with a FRER and only had 1 pink line.

I just want to quickly thank all the ladies that left wonderful comments on my blog, those comments really helped to keep me hoping throughout this cycle, it was amazing.

I will probably go into more details in my next post, just not in the mood right now, but I thought I should let you all know seeing as you have been right there with me on this cycle.

Take care ladies xxx

Lara

Still holding on at 14dpo

I have decided I am not testing today. I know that most women know if they are preggers or not by 14dpo but I'm not sure if I would get an accurate result.
Some weird stuff has been happening, let me explain. On Monday (12dpo)& Tuesday (13dpo) I had cramping pains mostly all day, I even had this weir crampy feeling in my left leg, it was really uncomfortable. It felt like period pains, so I was suspecting that AF could be on her way. However my temps still remain high and I'm beginning to wonder if my thermometer is working - I get the same reading more or less everyday.

Yesterday I had some dark reddish and brownish discharge coming through, also when I wiped after using the loo it was pinkish the first time and more brownish subsequent times. I never usually experience spotting before my periods, I usually get full flow right away. After spending some time on google, I read that it could actually be implantation spotting from when the fertilised egg is burying into my lining. They say implantation can happen anytime between 6dpo and 12dpo, with the usual average being 9dpo. Could it be possible that I implanted really late about 12dpo and I had some implantation spotting yesterday. If this is the case, I wouldnt be worth me doing a Hpt until Saturday, which is 18 dpo. Actually FF has me down as AF starting on Saturday as I usually have long cycles with quite a long luteul phase.

If my AF comes before that, I will know that is is just spotting before AF comes, this is my first time on a clomid cycle, so this may be a side effect for me. As my temps are still up, I still have some hope that maybe I implanted late and I could still get a bfp. My breasts are still sore, but not as much as before, maybe the progesterone is slowly starting to decline.

Do any of you know of anybody who had a late implantation but still managed to get a bfp that lasted? I think I need some encouragement.

Later xx

9DPO Update

As much as I am happy to be experiencing the "2ww" it's such a difficult time, filled with noticing every single thing your body does and paying too much attention to things that could be simply a coincidence. My days and nights have been filled with google-ing all kinds of things 2ww-related. I've never experienced this before because I never know when I have ovulated to be able to calculate my 2ww. I take my hat off to the many women who go through this countdown every single month, it's truly a struggle.

The good news is that my bbt temps have consistently remained elevated (about 97.9 average). I was wondering if I should stop charting my temps as I don't want to get too caught up in the temps, it would be so difficult for me to watch my temps slowly decreasing, I think I would rather just wait for my AF to arrive or to get a BFP. I think tomorrow will be the last time I take my temp for this cycle. Actually, I would really appreciate you advice and suggestion on this ladies. Please let me know your thoughts.

So these have been my symptoms so far;

• 1dpo - normal
• 2dpo - slightly sore boobs
• 3dpo - slightly sore boobs, sticky cm
• 4dpo- sore boobs, sticky cm, slight nausea, twinges around my ovaries
• 5dpo - sore boobs, sticky cm
• 6dpo - sore boobs, slight nausea, twinges and niggles
• 7dpo - sore boobs, creamy cm
• 8dpo - sore boobs, creamy cm, twinges and niggles
• 9dpo- sore boobs, sore throat, sticky cm

I was wondering if I would have some spotting to indicate implantation, as some women notice, but I didn't see this, but fingers crossed I still implanted. I should have a good chance since I released 2 eggs, right?

Today the fertility nurse called to let me know the results of the progesterone blood test I took on 7dpo - result was 129nmol/l. This is ridiculously high, I have a large amount of progesterone in my body right now, quite considerably above the average range. Average range is 6.4-79.5nmol/L (equal to 2-25ng/mL) a week after ovulation. This sounded like great news to me but the nurse was quick to remind me that it does not mean I am pregnant and it has no relation to my chances of getting pregnant. Why couldn't she just let me have my joy for a moment?

I am due to test on Tuesday/Wednesday and I'm really hopeful and positive, I have been joking with my husband about twins over the last few days, I think he is seriously scared.

As I have spent numerous hours on google search, I was intrigued to know what happens in a woman's body between the time of fertilization and implantation. Apparently the zygote is in "free-flow" until it lands on the lining and implants, a few days later it will release the hcg hormone which can be detected by a pregnancy blood test, then a couple of days later, the hcg will be present in your urine. It's quite interesting to know all this things about a woman's body and makes me appreciate the miracle of human life, truly a testament to the awesomeness of God. This whole ttc experience has taught me so many things about my body.

If you would like to read a more detailed  account of implantation, I found the link below quite helpful.

http://www.early-pregnancy-tests.com/lutealphase.html

So I have 5 more days to test, I never want to be in this 2ww again. I don't even want to try to get pregnant. Anyway, I cant really complain, this clomid therapy has worked well for me so for, so fingers crossed for the ultimate finish hey!

That's it for now, God Bless xxx

1DPO update

Right, so I should have posted some of my updates before today but I have come down with a cold and been trying to conserve my energy. 

The last time I posted (cd16), I had one follicle sized 16mm and another 17-18mm and I was asked to come back on cd19(today) to check the size and get my trigger shot (Ovitrelle).

Well, on cd17 I did my clearblue OPK test in the morning and I got a lovely smiley face - a positive, which I was quite surprised about because the DR said I needed a day or 2 more to let my follicles grow. Anyway, hubby and I did our part. I wanted to be doubly sure so I tested again late afternoon and it was still positive. I called the hospital to let them know and the fertility nurse said she was also a bit surprised but that she thought it was good and that I had a great lining. She said I no longer needed to come in on cd19 for my trigger shot, but I told her that I had had false positives in previous cycles and I wanted to be sure if I really ovulate without the trigger. So I kept my appointment hoping that the scan would conform that indeed I have ovulated and if not, I could just get my trigger shot.

I did another OPK test yesterday (cd18) morning and I got another positive, which is quite weird, anyway, hubby and I both did what we needed to do. 

This morning I did another one (only GOD knows why) and I got another positive - this is super weird, but I had a feeling that I had ovulated anyway because my bbt temp was 97.86, which was quite a dramatic rise.

So the DR scanned me as per usual, and she said that I had already ovulated from BOTH  of my ovaries - yes 2 eggs!!!!!!!!!!!! She claimed that she saw a collapsed follicle on both sides, she showed me one which I could clearly see but on the other side it was not so clear. Anyway, I trust her judgement.

So as it stands I am 1dpo and hubby and I have covered our bases with the bd'ing, and I have released 2 eggs, even if I don't get a BFN this cycle, I will still count this cycle as a success. It's the first time I have ever pinpointed my ovulation, this alone has increased my chances of pregnancy. Also, this will be a normal length cycle.

I have to go back to the hospital next Tuesday (cd24) for a progesterone blood test and then test the following Tuesday (cd31) which is 13dpo.

I hope I can stay calm and collected until then.

I will keep you posted once I get my blood test results and also on my temps, although I'm thinking I will only keep temping until the day of my blood test. I don't wan't to to get too hung over my temps and stress over whether I'm pregnant or not. I see that happening to a lot of women, if I don't know, I wont stress and I can look forward to my taking a pregnancy test.

That's it folks.

Warm wishes to you all xxx

Mid-cycle scan 2 update

Hey guys, hope you are all doing great. This one is just going to be a quickie, I will keep it short and sweet. I went for my second scan to check my follies this morning and the DR basically saw that they had grown, but still not quite there yet. I was not too surprised to be honest because I have not had any positive OPK's. My left ovary had a follicle of 16-17mm and my right had 17-18mm so not quite there yet. I have been asked to come back on Thursday morning (cd19) with my trigger shot to trigger my ovulation. By that time my follicles should be about 20mm and ripe enough for ovulation. If I get a positive opk before thursday morning, then I won't need to go to get triggered. Also, next week Thursday (cd26) I need to get blood drawn to check my progesterone levels, which will confirm ovulation. My lining was 10.2mm which is quite good. So I'm hoping my follies grow a bit by Thursday so I can get triggered and then all I need to worry about is BD'ing. Hope you are all doing Ok. Bye for now

Clomid mid-cycle scan results

So I had my ultrasound this morning to check the size of my follicles. This is what happened.

Clomid Update

I just wanted to put up a quick post about my experience of taking Clomid for the first time. As you know, I took it from day 2-6 and it would be fair to say that I have not had any strong side effects. I have had the occasional hot flash, but they only last a couple of minutes. I have not felt any pains or strains around my pelvic region I just hope that doesn't mean nothing is going on down there. I have not been really paying close attention to what's going on as hubby and I celebrated our 2year anniversary yesterday with a trip to Edinburgh. It was so good to get away and have some real quality time together without thinking about all these hormones. I'm going for my cd12 scan tomorrow to check the size of my follicles, hopefully they are growing nicely. I will update when I get back. I'm also going to start using OPK's tomorrow so I can detect my surge. That's it for now, sorry for the brief post, I'm just so tired from exploring Edinburgh over the last couple of days. Bye for now

DING DING.......Clomd round 1 begins

Hey beautiful supporters, I call you supporters because you guys are so supportive and help me get through the waiting upon waiting upon waiting. I really appreciate you all.

As the title suggests, I have started clomid, finally - after waiting for over a year and enduring test upon test and going to numerous appointments.

AF came yesterday, 9 days after my last provera pill, I thought it would come quicker than this but at least it's here now. So I called the RMU this morning and when the nurse called me back she told me start clomid today- I was rather surprised. First of all, I thought she would want me to come in for a scan before getting approval to start, and secondly I thought I would start on cd3,4 or 5. So I took my first dose around 8pm this evening after my dinner. I'm really happy I have finally started, I will be going in next thursday morning for a scan to check the size of my follicles.

One thing I have noticed, is that my AF is lighter than usual, this must be an effect of the provera. I usually have to change my tampon every 2 hours on cd1 & 2 and sometimes even double up with a pad. This one has been a lot lighter.

Also I have noticed that I gained weight whilst taking provera, I have not weighed myself but I can see and feel it, a few people have commented too. I will need to work on this because I have never been a size 10 in my life and I'm now borderline size 10, no bikini wearing for me when I go on my hols. My skin has also gotten worse, spots on my forehead and around the jaw line, I'm hoping this will clear soon though.

Oh yeah, I started temping this morning too so I will monitor my temps too.
Wish me luck for my first round of clomid.

Hugs

Poppin Provera Pills & Side effects

It's all in the vid. Happy Easter guys

I cant wait for AF to come

Provera x3

I'm really frustrated right now, I hate to start of writing this way but it just seems like every time I think I'm a little closer, I get moved steps back.

I called the nurses on Tuesday to let them know I was back from my trip and that I needed a scan to possibly get something to induce a period. The last time I was there, the nurse said I should call them if I don't get a period by the 27th of this month. I knew that would never happen so I just called them as soon as I got back.

So when the nurse called me back on Tuesday, she told me to come in for a scan today, and I was so happy that it was quick.

I have just left the hospital now, they scanned my uterus lining and measured the size of the eggs in my ovaries. After the scan was complete, the doctor told me that she would prescribe provera to take for 3 WEEKS, yes 3WEEKS. She went on to explain that due to the Easter break (when they would be closed) if I had a bleed they would not be able to do anything about it, so it would be better to take it for 3 weeks. This means by the times I have completed the 3 weeks and waited for the bleed to start, I'm looking at about 4 weeks minimum before I can start clomid. This sucks.

I asked her that would it have not made more sense to just have asked me to come in for the scan a few dys before they close and then only take provera for 1 week, she agreed but said that taking provera for 3 weeks is fine. Yes I agree, it's fine, but unnecessary.

So now I need to wait again, the waiting never ends.

I will take the first provera pill tonight and keep you updated of the side effects along the course.

If any of you have taken provera for this long, or know of anyone who has, I would really like to know how long it took for the withdrawal bleed to start.

Bests

Back to life, back to reality (cd22)

I always sing this song on the plane when I'm coming back from a holiday or trip, for some reason it just always comes to mind.


I'm back from my trip and the first thing on my mind is starting the clomid and my cycles. It's so funngy that while I was away I was not thinking about clomid or ttc or anything like that, I was just having fun with my family and friends. Spending time with my two cute nieces made me think that I would really like to have a girl first, it's amazing to see the personalities so evident at a young age, they amaze me. DH and I bought them a Nintendo Wii so we spent many evenings playing family games, and can't wait to experience the same with my own kiddies.

I think I would like to have 4 in total but we will see about that after having one FIRST. LOL!!!!!

So now that I'm back I'm going to call the fertility nurses and see if it is necessary for me to wait until cd29 before getting provera, as I know I would never have a period by then. Maybe I could just get a scan this week and then start the provera.

I'm happy to be back and back to focusing on getting pregnant but the break from temping, reading ttc blogs, and thinking about the whole ttc thing was great and I really need to enjoy my life and make the best of the time i have while I am not pregnant. Once I get pregnant I can never get this time of my life back again, as being a mother is a whole new life to adjust to. I need to enjoy the now, and not let ttc consume me, it will happen.


Oh, I'm loving this positive feeling I have right now,I'm feeling positive for all you guys out there too, let's stay positive together.

Hubby and I have opened a savings account dedicated to saving for the baby, we save anyway, but this will be baby specific. Do you guys save for a baby?

Take care guys

CD7 update & nurse appointment

Hey all, I'm on cd7 now and I have had a regular period so far. I saw the nurse on Wednesday (cd3) and had a transvaginal done. I also had some fertility hormone bloddtests as well as HIV,hep b, etc.
The transvaginal took about 20seconds and then she just told me start taking clomid that evening for 5 days and to come back for another scan on cd11. I was sooo happy and immediately started thinking about the possibility of it working on the first go and me being pregnant by the end of the month. That would be amazing.

I then asked her when my next appointment would be after the cd11 one, and she said it depended on how my body reacted but I would need to come for monitoring quite often as I have not taken it before. I then reminded her that I was travelling for 10 days and if I that would affect anything. She then told me that I could not start unill I begin my next period then, I told her that it could take up to 3 months to come again. So she said I should wait for 4 weeks and if period has not started then they would give me pills to bleed and then subsequently start the clomid.

I was so pissed you couldn't imagine, I was just so excited to start and then she killed my
excitement. I was thinking that they could scan me the day before I leave then I could start clomid while I'm away and then come back when my scan is due, but she wasn't happy with that. I guess I can't blame her for doing her job, she said it's only a month but that feels like year to me.

So I just have to be patient. I am not going to temp anymore as it just makes me too involved and I start worrying over every little thing. Just going to wait out the 4 weeks and prepare my body to eventually start clomid.


That's it for now, hope you guys are all ok.

Let me know what's going on with you.

God Bless

Back at One

Hey, as I was about to start writing I thought of the Brian McKnight song "Back at One" and it relates to my post because AF is here, yep that's right, CD1. But that song is such a great song, I used to have this song on repeat constantly. If you have not yard it before, go listen to it on YouTube.

So back to business, before I went to bed last night I went to the loo, and when I wiped I saw some pink - I immediately knew what was coming, so I put a sanitary towel on before I went to bed. I woke with full flow and lots of cramps.

When I saw the nurse she said I need to call on cd1, so I called today and left a message with their department. The nurse called me back later in the morning and booked me in for a transvaginal scan this Wednesday. She also told me not to take any clomid until they instruct me to. I will also need to take some blood tests for HIV,hep b,etc. I've had these tests already but they said I need to do them again because it was over a year ago and it's compulsory to have these tests done before having any fertility treatment.

So I'm wondering what will happen now, will I start now or have to wait till I get back fom my trip,at least I don't have to wait too long until Wednesday.

I'm slightly uncomfortable about having a transvaginal on cd3, my flow can be still slightly heavy at that time.

As I'm going to start clomid this cycle, I am going to make sure I'm taking my folic acid religiously, as well as vitamin b complex and evening primrose oil. I need to stock up on clearblue OPK's and I started temping again for this cycle.
Does anyone know if it's ok to take agnus castus along with clomid?, it helps with hormonal balance. Please let me know if you have insight.

God Bless

CD 48 update ( and fertility nurse appointment )

As the title suggests, I'm on cd48- another long ass cycle, but I have not been obsessing over this cycle, I have just let it run it's course without stressing about it too much. At the beginning of my cycle I was quite focused on making sure I complete a full cycle of temping and monitoring my CM. I also started using OPK's around cd15. You will be disappointed to know that amidst all the positive encouragement from you ladies,I still managed to stop temping and stop doing the OPK's. I know, I gave up and I shouldn't have. I'm just one of these people who easily get de- motivated when I don't see results soon enough. Actually I think it's more the fact that I'm not disciplined enough - or so my husband tells me. The last temp I charted was on cd30 and the last opk I did was on cd34, then I just threw in the towel as I knew it was going to be another drawn out cycle.

Anyway, I did start noticing my cm get a little stretchier and more eggwhite around cd34 and this continued for a few days, so I was thinking that maybe I'm ovulating. To be honest I should have really made sure I was temping and doing OPK's to confirm this but I was too lazy. It's also really hard to do OPK's when you get home late from work, there is no way i could do it at work either.

Unfortunately, we did not BD at all around the time that my cm appeared to be fertile, and this was due to me feeling unwell, drained, tired and hubby and I were not on the best terms anyway. By this time I was just looking forward to my appointment with the fertility nurse that had been set up at my last FS appointment back in January.

So I went to the hospital to see the nurse last week Thursday 16th feb, which was cd39 for me and to be honest i was excited to hear what she would say, hoping and praying she would just give me clomid and glad that I would jot have to undergo any invasive scans or anything.

By the time my appointment came along, in my heart of hearts I knew that I probably ovulated in the past few days and that we had missed our opportunity for this cycle, I had a very very slight tender feeling in my breasts which I only normally get when my AF is getting ready to show up.

So the nurse basically told me that my HSG report was normal and the next step was for me to go on 50mg of clomid for 3 months. She was very positive about it and said that she felt this would work for me, if not we could increase the dose. I was really happy as you can imagine.
She gave me the prescription then and there for 3months worth of clomid and also the trigger shot.

She said I could start immediately and I did not have to wait for my period but first they would need to do a scant check my uterus lining was thin, apparently you can only start when the lining is thin, if the lining is thick they can give you provera to make it shed and then you can begin. So she asked me to come in the following morning to get the scan done to check my lining. In my head I was thinking that my lining probably would be slightly thick as ovulation had happened and my period would probably come in about 2 weeks so it might make sense to wait for it. Anyway I did not say anything as there was a small chance that I could be wrong. The nurse said that once I start taking it I would need to come back a few days after my last dose to check if any eggs were maturing and to possibly get a trigger shot to make me ovulate. If there were no mature eggs I would need to come back a few days later to do another scan to check. She said I would also need to use the clearblue smiley face OPK's around that time and once get a positive to BD that morning, night and following morning. She said it must be the smiley face ones. In my mind I w thinking how I would manage to get all this time off work to come for scans without anybody knowing the Eason why.

Then suddenly I remembered that me and hubby are travelling for 10 days on the 9th march, how would we make all the appointments, so I told her and she advised that we should start the clomid when we get back. I will have to go in for a scan to check my lining and then start according to the result of the scan. I know that my period is going to come before then as my boobs are so sore and have doubled in size - hubby loves it!!!! I was right, I did ovulate when I say my CM get stretchier.

So the plan now is to call the nurse on CD1(which should be very soon) and here what she suggests, she did say that i might be able to start it while I'm away and then I could have a scan done to check for mature eggs as soon as I get back from our trip. So as it stands I don't really know when we are going to start the clomid, we will just have to play it day by day.

I must say that I feel quite positive about the clomid, even though she did say that it may take a while to have an effect, due to pcos. I have been reading loads of success stories online and they are really uplifting. Here's the link if you want to read a few.

http://www.mumsnet.com/Talk/pregnancy/199983-clomid-success-stories-please/AllOnOnePage

Phewww, this is a long post, I'm really sorry I should have been updating more regularly. If any of you have any clomid stories, good or bad, please share them. I would love to hear them.

Everyday I keep looking at my clomid wondering when I am going to start, but it should be quite soon.
I hope I have not missed out anything important.

Take care ladies xx

Baby dust to all

AWOL.......

Ok, so I admit I have been a bit absent lately. But I have a good excuse, I promise.
I have been so busy at work, as I just got promoted, yaaaaaay. I have so much responsibility now that I am getting home so late at night feeling shattered. Also the last 2 weekends have been absolutely packed.

I have quite a lot to update, but I'm at work right now, so will have to wait till I get home. I'm wondering whether I should post a video or a regular post....maybe you guys can let me know what you prefer.

I just thought I would post this just to let you know I have not completely abandoned my blog, some ladies on BnB have also started blogs recently, so I have a lot of catch up reading to do also. I'm also going to catch up on reading all your blogs too. So look out for my next post tonight.

God Bless

Back to OPK's

So I'm back to doing OPK's as I did not ovulate, I'm cd 29 today my test was quite dark but I don't think it was quite a positive.

My CM was gummy, I don't know if you really understand what that means, I don't really know how to describe it. I won't take a pic bcos that would just disgust you guys. It's not like a cream or lotion, it's slightly sticky and stretchy. I really have problems with this, I wish I could have a personal CM analyser.

Oh yeh, my bbt is actually working, my temps have gone back to their normal range.

So that's a quick update, I'm looking forward to what the nurse is going to give me next week.

Cycle day 25 update.......and confusion

This week has been a long week, mentally draining infact. In my last post I was excited to get 2positive OPK's, excited is an understatement to be honest. I promised to remain positive, which I did and I am - I think. DH and I BD'd around the days of the positive test to cover all bases, I think we did pretty well, apart from the day before my positive OPK which we did not BD on.
Since then I have been closely watching my temps, looking for a shift, but unfortunately I did not get any. My temps were a bit erratic for a few days and then they went real low, for the past 3 days my temp has been 96.76, usually my average temp is around 97.2 or something. At one point I was thinking my bbt had broken because i had the same temp for 3 days and they have been unusually low. Does the bbt not work in extremely cold weather or something - it's been absolutely freezing here for the past few days, unbearably cold in fact. How do people that live in Russia cope? It's like -20 over there.

Anyway, it seems as if i did not ovulate, it was just my shitty pcos body playing ovulation tricks on me again - totally not fair.

Also, for the past 2 days I have had a real creamy textured CM and I have noticed over the past 10 days or so that I tend to generally alternate between sticky and lotion type CM. Sometimes it has a tiny bit of stretch, but not clearly EWCM.

If anyone is reading this, do you think I should continue with the OPK's again? I might get a few positives before I eventually ovulate, I hate getting my hopes up only to find out I did not actually ovulate.

Please advise me, im a bit confused here and I'm at the point where I usually give upon my cycle and stop charting, but I promised I would see this cycle through even if it turns out to be 80 days long. I better stock up on more OPK's then.......ooops, where did the positivity go?


How are you ladies getting on?


Baby Dust to you all

Is Ovulation upon me? Cycle 16 update

Hi guys, hope you are all well. I thought I would do a quick cycle day update, although not much has been happening-until now.

I'm on CD 16 at the moment and even on a fairly normal cycle, I would say I generally ovulate about CD20. So I thought this would be a really important week to monitor my fertility signs. I have been temping every day and my normal range is between 96.9 - 97.27 and hopefully I will see a good temperature shift. I usually give up temping if I do not ovulate by day 30 as I cant be bothered with the stressing out. I noticed quite a creamy lotion-like cervical mucus on CD13 &14 and yesterday it was stretch but not slimey like egg-whites - I am not really sure how to categorise this CM. It wasn't really wet, it was whitish and I could stretch it a little way between my fingers, but in my mind I have just been thinking that its too early for me to ovulate and it's probably my pcos symptoms playing up.

I also have been doing OPK's, but I have only done it 3 days because I get home from work so late and sometimes I forget, sometimes I forget to stick to the peeing guidelines-lol!!!
But I remembered today and I got what I think is a  POSITIVE opk.

I wanted to be sure it was a positive , so I compared it to the one I did on CD13

What do you guys think? The one on the left is cd13 and the one on the right is today, it looks quite a bit darker doesn't it? But it does not stop there, I had some Clearblue smiley face OPK's that I use for back up (they are waaaaay too expensive to use everyday, especially with my long ass cycles) so I decided to test with these too.

WOOOHOOOO, SMILEY FACE!!!!!!!

I actually can't believe this, its almost too good to be true - but enough with that attitude. My DH will not be able to come up for air for a few days - we are gonna catch that lil eggy.

I know that when you have pcos, your body can play tricks and gear up for ovulation and then not ovulate, so I am well aware of this but I choose to remain positive and treat it like 100% ovulation.

Wish me luck this cycle guys.

FS Appointment & HSG

Hi peeps,

I made another video about what happened with my HSG, but in case you can't be bothered to watch it. I've put down a few bullet points below.

• FS appointment lasted all of 10mins
• The results form my trans-vaginal were all normal
• I had to insert big suppositories which was very uncomfortable
• The HSG showed I had no blockages
• It was not too painful
• I have to go back mid-Feb to get drugs to regulate my cycles

If you want to know more about the process - watch the video.

I had a really emotional day and when I came home I was completely shattered so just decided to take it easy. I have heard many people say that the HSG really clears all the junk out of you uterus and tubes, and that it then increases your chances of conceiving for up to 3 months. I am really hanging onto this hope and remaining positive about receiving a BFP as a result of my next ovulation. I have been charting my temps so far so hopefully this will help.

God Bless

Transvaginal Ultrasound

Hey ladies, I thought I would switch things up a bit and post a video to talk about this experience. I had it done last Wednesday (13/01). I think it was a bit too long so it cut off, but the rest was just babble anyway.

CD 2 & fertility tests

Hey all, hope you are all doing great.
So I'm on cd2 and I have a few cramps and stuff, nothing major. I just wanted to let you know about my tests - they are all booked now. The transvaginal will be this friday afternoon (cd5) and the HSG will be next Wednesday (cd10). Hopefully all will be fine and we can move forward.
I spent about 3 hrs on hold to try and speak to the people who could book the tests for me, and both appointments were the last slots available, so I guess I was quit lucky. I was so frustrated about the waiting and waiting and waiting, it just seemed like nobody was actually there. The ladies I spoke to were so rude and abrupt, and completely lacking in the sensitivity department. My FS appointment is booked for early morning next Wednesday but they booked my HSG for Wednesday late morning,and the results are needed so they can be discussed in the FS appointment. I explained this to her, but she she rudely said that's all they have. I can completely appreciate that they are booked up but she did not even try to offer up a possible solution or anything, just rudeness and sharpness.
I think the nhs is a great thing and the really work hard and do a great thing, but it's clear that they are overstretched, you are just treated as another nhs number. Private care is the way forward, I'm telling you.

So now, I may have to even change my FS appointment, but I can't wait another 2 months, that would be agony. I will let you know what happens, I may just have to go ahead with it like that and see what the doctor says, I did try calling to rearrange the appointment but as per usual, I was just put on hold for what seemed like 5 hrs.

Aaaarrgh, so frustrated.

Cycle Day 1 ....... finally!

Thank the Lord.... you're ugly face is finally here, you are the most annoying thing in my life but boy am I glad to see you (maybe I should be a bit nicer and you will come more often). Ok, so lets start again, I'm so overwhelmed with joy to see this beautiful manifestation of feminine beauty, please visit me more often.

So CD1 is here again after 71 days, and you wont understand how relieved I feel. As with every new cycle, I am going to try and be disciplined with my temping and I may do OPK's from mid-cycle. As I said in previous posts, I will be checking my CM daily and I may even have a shot at checking my cervical position daily also.

As per usual I will be taking Folic Acid, Bcomplex, Vit C, Evening  Primrose and I am not really sure if I will take Agnus Castus, I took it for the first 30 days of this cycle but I will think about it.

Now that AF is here I can finally have my transvaginal ultrasound and HSG (super nervous). I phoned the fertility clinic today to let them know I was on CD1 and I am waiting for them to call me back with an appointment. I  also called the imaging department where the HSG will take place but they were closed so I will have to call them again in the morning. Hopefully I will have it done on the 16th  in time for my appointment on the 18th.
Finally I feel like maybe we can make some progress, I really believe that my tubes will show to be clear and if that is the case I will probably be prescribed Clomid. The problem is I may have to wait for a fresh cycle to begin and I am not sure  when that could be.

So stay tuned to find out how the transvaginal will go this week and I will try to give more regular updates with whats happening this cycle.

How are all of you? Let me know if you have any updates. Anybody on CD1 and want to be a cycle buddy?

TMI Alert - Cervical Mucus Analysis

Hi all, hope you are all enjoying the first day of the year.
DH and I are keeping it quite chilled today, and it got me thinking a bit about the things I want to improve on for this year. One of those things is analysing my cervical mucus. Some women seem to be so on top of this, but I really do struggle. I think I don't produce a lot of it to begin with so it is hard for me to monitor it without making a conscious effort to do so.

The three primary fertility signs are-
1.basal body temp
2.cervical mucus
3.cervical position

I generally suck at the other two, so I am going to try and focus on noting my cervical fluid. "Cervical fluid is to a woman what seminal fluid is to the man." Since men are always fertile, they continuously produce seminal fluid. Women on the other hand are only fertile the few days around ovulation, and therefore only produce the substance necessary for sperm nourishment and mobility during that time. Basically, sperm can only survive the fertile cervical mucus that is present around a woman's ovulation.. So the pattern is supposed to go like this-

• after AF there is generally no CM present, 
• then after some days you should start to notice sticky CM that could also be describes as pasty, tacky, crumbly. gummy, springy, or even cement like - its also usually white or yellowish.
• it then becomes more creamy, like a lotion, it may feel milky and smooth. It is usually quite wet, moist, gooey, or cold.
• soon after it should become slimy and slippery and resemble egg whites - it will stretch a few inches between your fingers, also it will be wet, lubricative, or even humid.
• immediately after ovulation you may notice nothing at all or a dry sticky CM

Some of you may have seen this already, but if not this will help.

So in my case, I have been trying to be more aware of these transitions, and I am planning to focus more on this, this year.I have heard somewhere that if you have PCOS it may not be so simple to read, as you notice eggwhite CM and do not eventually go on to ovulate (why does everything seem to be so difficult with PCOS?) In my last post I mentioned that I had notice a more fertile CM and was hoping that it means I ovulated - but who knows, at cd64 i'm clutching at straws here.

If any of you have any experience of this, I would love to hear about it, please let me know if this helped you in your journey at all. I have read about women who said they woke up swimming in eggwhites, they BD'd and a few weeks later, they were preggers.

Take care, and baby dust to all.